this is not that post…
|this is my motto these days…|
Soon I am hoping to write a post that is more cheery and upbeat and filled with rainbows and unicorns… but this is not that post.
One day I will write a post that says someone is actually listening to me and believes what not only myself but the rest of the family and his teachers at school sees…
but this is not that post.
There will come a day where I can say that I fully trust and have faith in our doctors…
but this is not that post.
Ever since Sam has been diagnosed with seizures we have dealt with so much that we are exhausted. Looking back over my posts from last summer/fall and reading how once Sam was on these lovely seizure medications how he has slipped further and further from us. His moods are severe and extreme, his tiredness is NOT typical teen behaviour, he doesn’t eat yet is gaining weight, he doesnt exercise as he has no energy most days to get up the stairs to go to bed!
There have been days of violence towards siblings, verbal abuse towards siblings and Dennis and I, running away episodes, depressed days where we were scared to leave him alone… not pretty days to say the least. This last week has been one of those kind of weeks…
Monday he left school in fine moods, nothing happened on the bus (so we are told), the kids all came home, had a quick talk with me about what needs to be done for chores in the barn, and away they went …
10 minutes later I recieved a text from Josh that Sam and Isaac were fighting and I was needed. Out I went to help. They were not fighting anymore and when I asked what was going on, Sam proceeded to punch Ike in the chest and then the two of them counldnt really say what started it all. Then Sam suddenly walked away to the house where he packed a bag and was leaving.
No one understands him, we dont ‘get’ anything and he was outta here. We tried reasoning with him, telling him that if he was determined to leave he needed to call CFS and let them know he wants out. He yelled about it all and left …
no meds, no wallet with ID, no medic alert bracelet (his broke last week and we are waiting for a new one), he doesnt have a cell phone, no money, no clothes…. nothing
so off he went and since we didnt know what to do anymore we called CFS and they directed us to call the RCMP. They said they could do nothing for us unless we want to report he was a danger to himself “so just follow him and keep him safe”
… so that is what we did. We were able to get him to talk to us for a few minutes in the van to learn
his plan was to walk to Alberta to see a girl he met 2-3 years ago at cadet camp that he has been talking with on the phone for the last few months. Then he got verbally abusive to me again and I told him to leave the van and we would continue to follow him.
He got out and turned for home.
I am sorry but if this is typical teen behaviour then every other teen I have worked with are not ‘normal’.
I did more research about the med Keppra he is on and this is what I found: (what Sam experiences are all in bold red)
- loss of strength and energy
- other mood changes
- decreased ability to cope with daily life events
- thoughts of suicide
- severe anxiety, agitation, or confused thought
- tiredness (sometimes with slower thinking)
- upset stomach
- tremor (shaking of the hands or other parts of the body
- hair loss
- weight gain
- changes in behavior (depression in adults, irritability in children)
- weakness, sluggishness, swelling of the face, loss of appetite, vomiting, or yellowish eyes or skin, especially in a child under 2 years of age (possible liver failure)
- pain in the abdomen, upset stomach, vomiting, or loss of appetite (possible disease of the pancreas)
- easy bruising, nosebleed, or other abnormal bleeding (problems with clotting)